Something I failed to mention yesterday was that what I am posting here is the original, unedited manuscript. I understand this may cause some confusion as it includes all the typos and mistakes which I have not, before now, been able to go back through and correct. This is part of the reason I wanted to be able to start work on it again.
When I began writing this scene I felt I needed to show it from the viewpoints of each of the main characters. There was too much going on, too many emotions being expressed. I don’t know if I will be able to keep both narratives, but I feel they are both needed for a full understanding of the dynamic between Kira and Anne.
On a different note….
I’m at a point at the moment when my feelings are confused, often I find myself thinking about what it would be like to be more feminine in my presentation, to maybe live full time, yet at there are many times when I am comfortable just as I am. I’ve thought of what best describes me and I keep coming back to “Two Spirit” as it seems to be the closest to how I am feeling about myself, but it seems a little off. I know I could say I am simply me and it would be true, but it is hard to find a framework to talk to others about who I am. I know labels are troublesome, but they are useful when trying to find a farm of reference to discuss things with someone. Trans* is such a broad term, several of the people I have spoken to thought it was just about either cross dressing or Transexuals and I had to explain once I wasn’t into guys. I suppose I need to take the time to research the stories of others who have come out, maybe I can get some tips…