This was written while listening to “Beethoven’s 5 Secrets” by The Piano Guy’s.
A lifetime ago…
I need only close my eyes and I find myself there, in that ancient time, walking those same streets. I again feel the weight of a world I could not comprehend, upon my shoulders.
I remember the hopelessness, the Loneliness I couldn’t share.
I remember knowing I was in an endless tunnel with nothing but darkness before and behind me.
And I remember wondering what it was driving me to wake each day, to go about the necessity of living.
Yet not knowing, not understanding, I did it anyway. A robot made of flesh and blood.
There were times when it would suddenly strike me that even in the midst of so many I was alone.
It was then I longed to shed tears, to let them flow in mourning not for what was, but for what could never be.
Those tears were never shed for I had yet to learn how to cry.