Four Corners | Transgender escorts, prostitutes, sex workers

Four Corners | Transgender escorts, prostitutes, sex workers:

“In Australia, acceptance is a long way off, and more than half report experiences of violence, social exclusion and abuse. Discrimination is systemic in the workplace, and with few decent job opportunities, many turn to prostitution, as reported by news.com.au recently.”

(Via. News.com.au)

What Compassionate Conservatives Are Getting Wrong About Transgender Issues | ThinkProgress

What Compassionate Conservatives Are Getting Wrong About Transgender Issues | ThinkProgress:

“Brown takes great umbrage that he’s been characterized as ‘a transphobic bigot lacking empathy’ for his views — including his refusal to respect the name and gender of transgender people like Caitlyn Jenner. The case that he makes is that he’s not convinced that transgender identities are real: ‘What is the definitive test that confirms this identity?’”

(Via. ThinkProgress)

The high cost of being transgender – CNN.com

The high cost of being transgender – CNN.com:

“Many transgender people transition without surgery. Some say they don’t want surgery, or are interested in only some of the medical options available. But many cite the cost of the procedures — potentially more than $100,000 out of pocket — and the lack of insurance coverage as a barrier to their transition. Still, they worry about how going without might affect their mental health and safety.”

(Via. CNN)

Life as Sara. What it’s like to be a transgender woman when you’re not Caitlyn Jenner | The Washington Post

Life as Sara. What it’s like to be a transgender woman when you’re not Caitlyn Jenner | The Washington Post:

“Seventeen days after Caitlyn Jenner appeared in airbrushed glory on the cover of Vanity Fair, Sara Simone woke up in her rented Alexandria bedroom and considered the tools at her own disposal: a $9 bottle of Revlon ColorStay foundation — ‘Mahogany’ — a spritz of Paris Hilton perfume, a plunging black T-shirt showcasing the breasts she had patiently earned with hormones. Was the shirt too racy? Maybe. But it was better, she’d decided when she transitioned four years ago, to have men stare at her chest than to have them scrutinize her face and ask whether she was a man or a woman. ‘Better they whistle at me than jump me,’ she sometimes said, because in her particular existence as a transgender woman, catcalling seemed the lesser and safer of possible indignities.”

(Via.)

Snippet: Fiction

She rested a hand on the girls shoulder.

 

“We had an agreement.” 

 

The man behind her shifted nervously, “What does it matter? They’re all the same.”

 

Her grip tightened and and she watched the pain flitter across too wide eyes before it was swallowed in a drug induced haze. “No,”

With one seeming gentle movement she drew her other hand across the girls neck, a single red line appearing on her stone white skin, “they are not.”

“We had an agreement.” The man behind her shifted nervously, “What does it matter? They’re all the same.”Her grip tightened and and she watched the pain flitter across too wide eyes before it was swallowed in a drug induced haze. “No,”With one seeming gentle movement she drew her other hand across the girls neck, a single red line appearing on her stone white skin, “they are not.”

Groundhog Day

Yesterday I shopped for a new wig (though I didn’t buy one.)

It made me realize something I said jokingly to A was truer than I’m comfortable with… “I feel like I’m in “Groundhog Day” The movie starring Bill Murray. The summery says simply, “Weatherman find himself living the same day over and over again.” Yeah, I can relate.

… I don’t remember when I last made the decision to present as female. I know it has been over a month at the least. On one hand I just  don’t have the energy any more to try and present as something, someone I’m not sure I am, on the other being seen or referred to as male feels like a knife being twisted in my chest. I don’t know if it makes any sense or not… I do know what I see in my mind but it doesn’t match my physical reality and I feel as if I’m deluding myself… how can I ignore biology? 

More than once I have wondered if I’m not actually insane… after all, they say a crazy person doesn’t see themselves as crazy, it’s the rest of the world which is nuts…

What is funny about this, and mean funny is a sad way, not ha-ha funny, is how often I am still gendered as female. This without an ounce of effort on my part. No clothing, makeup, or hair… Just plain, little ‘ol me. I guess it says something this doesn’t bother me in the least while male pronouns make me almost physically ill and threatens to push me into a panic attack or sever depression.

Seriously, I’m at a loss.

I don’t know where to go from here, what to do or even what to think.