This is a post I should have written on the first; a new year, a new beginning but I wasn’t ready then. I had to reach a place where I have the time to take stock of myself. Where I have been, where I am, where I would like to go.
Taking things backward, I really can’t see where I am heading just yet. It isn’t time for me to do so. I know as time passes I will gain a better perspective of what I need to do to move forward. There is no need to push things.
As for where I am; I have reached a place where, mentally and emotionally, I have cleared away much of garbage and waste of the past. I am ready to start over fresh in many ways, to start not with a clean slate, but one which has been reorganized into something useful for who I am now. There is no erasing the past, only putting things into perspective. Yes, there were bad things which happened, but those were a lifetime ago and it is time to leave them behind. There were good things too. Things which built the foundation upon which to build a future. There are lessons learned, understanding gained, and memories collected which have enriched my life beyond anything I could have imagined. There are new people and new opportunities.
Now is the time to truly open my eyes and see the world around me, not through the damaged reflections of the past but through the clean glass of understanding.
To reflect my new outlook I have updated the look of my blog and I am going to do my best to become a better writer and bring better content. I’m sure I am going to fall short from time to time. Find myself slipping into bad habits and riding the emotional roller coaster which has brought be this far. I am many things, but first and foremost I am human and therefore not perfect.
As I have said many times, I am a work in progress.