Something happened between A and I. I can’t go into specifics, I won’t. The important thing is this, she told me;
“I can’t do again. I won’t be able to think of you as my husband.”
This is what she told me after a day in which a situation took place which continues to bother her. I will tell you I am glad she felt it was important to share her thoughts and feelings with me, yet like her, this is something which has come to consume my thoughts.
I don’t know what to think.
What to feel.
What to do.
For this moment, I do nothing. I am in a place of suspended animation, lost in the thoughts and emotions which swirl through my mind… my heart.
I take it back, I do know one thing. I don’t want to hurt any more and I don’t want to hurt those around me either, yet it seems one cannot happen without the other.