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First of a kind trans suicide life line | Planet Transgender

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First of a kind trans suicide life line | Planet Transgender:

“Dealing with discrimination is a bitch. There’s bias in every facet of our lives. At home, school, at work, doctor’s offices and even in social scenes as we try to relax. Often these instances of hate accumulate inside until there seems no way to get away without just ending it all.”

(Via. Planet Transgender)

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Choosing Authenticity | Stephanie Mott

I found this on Huffington Post and it says many of the things I have thought myself. 

Choosing Authenticity | Stephanie Mott: “”

(Via. huffingtonpost.com)

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From There to Here

It has been awhile since I spoke of the journey which has brought me to this place. Long, difficult, terrifying… these are just a few of the words with which I could describe it, yet so are liberating, amazing, breath taking.

I reached the point I could no long keep deceiving myself almost three years ago. I was speaking with A about this and I realized I could have jumped directly to where I am now, largely living out as female. (I say it this way because I have always been and continue to be myself even in those times when I refused to see or hear the truth in my heart). Yet doing so would have left me without the certainly I have now. I have struggled every step of the way, full of questions and doubts, dragging my feet for as long as possible, looking for another way to proceed. Yet even time I have returned to this path, sometimes relieved, others battered and bruised. Even for all of this, I am stronger today than I have ever been. More certain of myself, of the decisions I have made. Oh, there are still times when doubt creeps in, when I think I don’t have the strength to take one more step… then I do because it is either that or to give up and die. 

I said I came out three years ago, more to the point I was honest with myself. I knew I had thoughts, feelings, hope, and dreams different from those around me as young as ten years old. I didn’t have words such as Transgender or Transsexual, I could only have told you how I felt, what I thought, all the things which scrapped against my conscience as being wrong. 

Instead I told myself everyone had these thoughts, feelings, hopes, and dreams, they just didn’t talk about them.

Time and again, I wondered, could I walk into public and be seen as a woman? I made plans, I created lists of what I would need, even thought of the lies to tell the cashiers and salespeople. In the end I would always talk myself out of it, there was too much fear and uncertainty. Back then the dream wasn’t worth the risk. 

Or so I told myself.

This cycle of thinking, of living a lie every moment, nearly killed me more than once… I have read so many stories and articles about the high rate of suicide among the trans population and I see myself in those numbers. 

Somewhere along the way I lost track of the times when I thought I didn’t have the strength, when I thought it would be better if I weren’t here to be a burden on so many others. Being in such a place is something beyond simple explanation, terrifying, comforting, a path which blazes with the Will-O-the-Wisps of something, anything better than what is right in front of you in this moment.

Even now I can still hear the sirens call.

The difference now is I am living my truth and while the echoes of the past remain with me, they have less of a pull than ever before.

Never let anyone claim to have it easy, our society is too quick to pass judgment on what it doesn’t understand.

None the less, I cannot express the freedom which comes with being true to yourself, the quiet and calm of spirit which is enough to bring me to tears. It has and I imagine it will for a long time to come.

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*** News Release *** THE NATIONAL BAR ASSOCIATION RESPONDS TO THE GRAND JURY’S DECISION NOT TO INDICT IN THE SHOOTING DEATH OF MICHAEL BROWN

*** News Release *** THE NATIONAL BAR ASSOCIATION RESPONDS TO THE GRAND JURY’S DECISION NOT TO INDICT IN THE SHOOTING DEATH OF MICHAEL BROWN:

“WASHINGTON, DC – The National Bar Association is questioning how the Grand Jury, considering the evidence before them, could reach the conclusion that Darren Wilson should not be indicted and tried for the shooting death of Michael Brown. National Bar Association President Pamela J. Meanes expresses her sincere disappointment with the outcome of the Grand Jury’s decision but has made it abundantly clear that the National Bar Association stands firm and will be calling on the U.S. Department of Justice to pursue federal charges against officer Darren Wilson. ‘We will not rest until Michael Brown and his family has justice’ states Pamela Meanes, President of the National Bar Association. “

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