Music, Transgender

BeLL’s “Losing My Religion” Video Features Queer Stars |

Sometimes music hurts…

BeLL’s “Losing My Religion” Video Features Queer Stars |

“Alternative pop artist BeLL recently premiered her new music video for ‘Losing My Religion,’ a cover of R.E.M.’s 1991 single, Friday. The video features artists such as Rocco Katastrophe and Her Story actress Laura Zak. “


Eyes Closed

Bitter winds blow across a barren landscape. Grit and sand scour rock, turning land and sky into a featureless grey blur. Whispers and sighs unexpectedly turn to thunderous roars of anger, of frustration.


I am left with nothing but memories burned to ash.


Gene Wilder Dead: ‘Young Frankenstein’ Star Was 83 | Variety

Gene Wilder Dead: ‘Young Frankenstein’ Star Was 83 | Variety:

“Gene Wilder, who regularly stole the show in such comedic gems as ‘The Producers,’ ‘Blazing Saddles,’ ‘Young Frankenstein,’ ‘Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory’ and ‘Stir Crazy,’ died Monday at his home in Stamford, Conn. His nephew Jordan Walker-Pearlman said he died of complications from Alzheimer’s disease. He was 83.”


LGBTQIA, Transgender

The numbers: Transgender in America – The Blade

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The numbers: Transgender in America – The Blade:

“It’s difficult to definitively state the number of transgender men and women in the United States. Statistics and surveys vary — in part because not all transgender people are out and/or willing to declare themselves as trans to the government or on forms.”



I am so confused right now, I don’t know who I am, who I was or even who I want to be. I’m not looking for reasons, excuses, or explanations for how or why I find myself in this place at this moment. Such things are pointless speculations at best and they won’t help me find the answers I need.

I want to be able to close my eyes and know.

I want to be able to step outside this body, with its assumptions and expectations, its imposed suppositions, all the contrived actions and reactions. I want… No, I need to be free to be.

I made the mistake of thinking I needed to rediscover myself, to embark on a journey of rebuilding, retooling, of making a better more enlightened version of myself when in truth, I never knew myself. Everywhere I look, every thought, opinion, hope and dream has been borrowed from somewhere else. All those years of trying to fit in, of being a mimic, a mirror reflecting back what I thought other expected to see, left me little more than an shadow, a vaporous possibility.