Month: November 2016

Humpty Dumpty

There are times when I think I am too broken to ever be put back together…

Not so long ago I didn’t realize how broken I was. Oh, I knew there were something wrong in my head, but I had no concept of how bad the damage was. Honestly, I doubt I have scratched the surface but what I know now is enough to make me want to simply give up. There is too much  and it seems to get more complicated, more intertwined and knotted… Seriously, I feel like the lone meatball in the center of a can of alphabet soup.

ADD, BDD, OCD, PTSD… the list get longer by the day and I am at a loss as how to deal with just one thing never mind a medical journal’s worth of problems and issues.

Life has never been easy, I would be a fool to suggest it was, but now… I don’t know anymore…

I don’t really understand who or even what I am. I try to grasp onto small thing, a like, dislike, a hobby or interest of some kind, anything which gives me a connection, a place to start… but it slips through my fingers like mist on a foggy morning with the sun is taking far too long to burn its way through and I’m left to muddle through with no idea of where I’m going or why.

‘In the Mirror, What I Saw Was a Monster’: Living with Body Dysmorphic Disorder | Broadly

‘In the Mirror, What I Saw Was a Monster’: Living with Body Dysmorphic Disorder | Broadly:

“Those who suffer from body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) fixate obsessively on one or more perceived flaws in their appearance, resulting in depression and social anxiety—and, in extreme cases, thoughts of suicide. But despite the severity of the condition, there are only a few clinics in the US specializing in treating BDD.”

‘I Can’t Keep Living Like This’: How Homelessness Is Killing Trans People | Broadly

‘I Can’t Keep Living Like This’: How Homelessness Is Killing Trans People | Broadly:

“In honor of the transgender men and women who lost their lives to extreme violence and suicide in 2016, we’re taking an in-depth look at the social factors that contributed to their deaths.”

What’s in a Word? The Challenges of ‘Transgender’ – TRANZGENDR

What’s in a Word? The Challenges of ‘Transgender’ – TRANZGENDR:

“Thanks to recent media coverage like the New York Times’ Transgender Today series, celebrities like Laverne Cox and television shows like Transparent, most people are becoming increasingly familiar with transgender culture.”

Transgender Child Actors Are Making History – TRANZGENDR

Transgender Child Actors Are Making History – TRANZGENDR:

“Hollywood has been stuck between a rock and a hard place when it comes to trans visibility. On one hand, there are groundbreaking series that are shining an honest spotlight on the complexities of trans life while also creating new opportunities for trans actors, writers, producers, and directors. But there are also shows and movies that are attempting to tell trans stories without involving any actual trans people. If the rising generation of trans child actors has anything to say about it, that won’t be a problem in the future.”