I decided it was time to take a short break from social media this weekend. There has simply been too much bad news lately and it has not had a good effect on my mental health. Part of the problem is I spend a great deal of time and effort to keep my mind occupied to avoid thinking about things I cannot change. (Not to mention all of the emotions which wash through my thoughts like a black tide seeking to suck me beneath the surface and drown me with hopelessness).
My habit of searching out ways to confirm all of the negative things the voices in my head whisper when the day grows too quiet does nothing to help and although I know this deep down, it is often impossible to stop myself from listening. I don’t know, maybe after so long living with all of the chaos in my head, I became addicted to the pain and I am too scared to find out what life might be like without it.