I don’t even know what I had started to write today. I was distracted by a story on Yahoo! Sports. I’m not going to rehash the story here, you can read it at the link.
This made me sick when I first heard about about and make me sick today even as I feel a sense of relief the victim has some small justice. I say a small justice because this girl will live with what happened for the rest of her life. The criminals who attacked her? I doubt even now they see what they did as wrong, only that they were punished for just being “one of the boys.”
This is yet another story which should never have happened, wouldn’t have happened if those involved, the guilty and the “friends” who stood by had any understanding of basic humanity. Instead they were steeped in a culture which cast girls and women as the rightful property of men and boys who expect to be rewarded for being “stars” in something as pointless as high school sports. Of course it goes far beyond this one case or the local culture which spawned those involved. It speaks to the insidious nature of a world wide culture which places the value of one person over another based in their gender. When one segment of the population believes might makes right, when being able to force yourself on another person because you are physically able to do so, means you have the right to do so, then we see this as the result. Not only this but also stories such as the Scottish tourist attacked in India, or the earlier story of the Indian student who was attacked and later died. It is the stories found in every local paper of those attacked every day. When this is an everyday occurrence, something is very, very wrong and it needs to be changed. Now.
I understand the importance of dealing with gun violence as we see in the US at the moment, but the plight of women all over the world who are raped and killed every day needs to have the same insistent spotlight shone on it as well. One problem is no less life shattering than the other and they need to be brought to the forefront of public awareness.
How many times have you looked into the past, remembering one thing after another and in the end you feel depressed? All those things gone forever from your life, all the regrets. I know I have been there, done that, could write a book on beating myself up over things. Well, enough of it I say! Today I want to dredge the depths of my memories and remember things which can still bring a smile to my face.
So what sort of things? I’m glad you asked!
How about Saturday morning cartoons? How about your favorite television shows or music from back in the day? Maybe your most beloved clothing item or fashion statement.
I grew up in the 70s and 80s and there were a lot of fun things to remember. I also heard recently the 80s are making a comeback, not sure what it means just yet, but I can’t wait to see what kids today find interesting from the era of hair bands, leggings, and parachute pants.
It’s time for me to begin reclaiming those years. To rebuild my memories, not forgetting anything, but to put life back into perspective. Not every moment is one of pain and not every memory is linked to sadness, so why dwell on those things? Why not bring back those little things which bring a little happiness back into a cloudy day?
I think there is a friend of mine who will be happy to know I started work on my manuscript again. I know it seems I took a little too much time off, but getting a new computer set up the way I want with the proper software took longer than I anticipated. It’s what I get for going from a desktop to a laptop, though I am much happier with the change.
As for the work in progress, I have kept everything I originally wrote and plan to incorporate it into what I’m doing now. The issue was not being able to reconnect with the flow I originally had. Yesterday I caught it again when a new piece of the story arc came to me. More important, I caught the excitement I had with the entire project originally.
At this point I am reworking the character notes, I want even more information for the secondary players than the shadowy outlines I began with because I had put so much energy into the main characters. I am also doing research on locations. I want to have everything visualized in as much detail as possible. It means more time spent digging through the net, but I believe it’s going to pay off in the end.
Today hasn’t been my best. I have an inflamed nerve running from my ear down my jaw which and has me in a lot of pain. Not constant, but when it flares up, it makes it hard to even think. This has been going on for several days, but being home last night, it made it impossible to sleep and all I have been able to do is take cat naps. I’m an emotional and mental mess. The best part is all I can do is take aspirin to off set the pain as there isn’t anything to be done but let it work its self out. Add to this a loss of appetite and I’ve been loads of fun to be around even though I’m trying to remain civil. I know it could be worse, but I’m tired of this and just want it to go away.
This is a quick post, I’m still in the process of getting the new computer set up. Thankfully I’m almost done so I can get back to work.
It will still take me a little while to get up to speed as this is a laptop and I’ve been using a desktop for years. I know, a computer is a computer, but there are enough differences that it affects my workflow.
I guess one good thing is I’ve been busy enough I haven’t had time to really think about what’s in my head, but then, it doesn’t leave much to write about. I also haven’t had a chance to write any poetry, though that could change at a moments notice. I also haven’t been working on my manuscript, but I do have some ideas I need to flesh out. I’m sure my self appointed editor isn’t going to like that news… But I hope to be back up to speed soon.