A viral fake news story linked trans health care to ‘thousands’ of deaths

A viral fake news story linked trans health care to ‘thousands’ of deaths:



A recent article published by Catholic news outlet LifeSiteNews alleged that the drugs used to treat gender dysphoria in some transgender children are linked to “thousands” of deaths.

The story went viral on right-wing news websites such as the Christian Post and the Daily Wire. According to CrowdTangle, a social media metric platform, these posts — including shares by Daily Wire founder Ben Shapiro and commentator Matt Walsh — are currently some of the top performing LGBTQ-related content on Facebook and Twitter.

The problem is: the “thousands” of people who die while taking these drugs are likely the terminally ill cancer patients who receive hormone blockers to fight hormone-sensitive cancers, like prostate cancer, according to experts.


Gatekeeping hormone replacement therapy for transgender patients is dehumanising

Gatekeeping hormone replacement therapy for transgender patients is dehumanising


Although informed consent models for prescribing hormone replacement therapy are becoming increasingly prevalent, many physicians continue to require an assessment and referral letter from a mental health professional prior to prescription. Drawing on personal and communal experience, the author argues that assessment and referral requirements are dehumanising and unethical, foregrounding the ways in which these requirements evidence a mistrust of trans people, suppress the diversity of their experiences and sustain an unjustified double standard in contrast to other forms of clinical care. Physicians should abandon this unethical requirement in favour of an informed consent approach to transgender care.

Hormone therapy helps strengthen brain connections in transgender women

Hormone therapy helps strengthen brain connections in transgender women:

In transgender women who have had their testes removed as part of the gender-affirming process, a form of estrogen called estradiol strengthens connections between areas of the brain involved in fine motor skills, learning, emotions and sensory perception, according a study to be presented Monday at ENDO 2019, the Endocrine Society’s annual meeting in New Orleans, La. These findings reflect changes on the brain that might have implications, for instance, for treating hot flashes and other symptoms in transgender women, the researchers say.

So Close, Yet So Far

One thing about closely following trans centered informational sources, blogs, news, websites, is there is almost always something being mentioned about hormones or HRT. This isn’t including the endless array of YouTube videos or various photo time lines shared on Facebook or Instagram. 

Not surprising, this is a subject near and dear to my own heart. There are days when it is all I seem to think about and they can be some of the hardest. The mirror is a real witch then and reflective surfaces of all kinds aren’t much better. Just knowing what I will see is enough to turn my stomach into knots and the reality either brings tears or such a level of depression all I want to do is crawl back into bed.

Recently this has become worse. You see, my doctor has prescribed spiro for me and this week he increased the dose to 100mg. The reason has nothing to do with being trans, it’s for my blood pressure, but of course I am all too aware of the “other” use it has. Now I don’t know what dose would be correct for me if used in conjunction with estrogen; from what I have read though, suggests as much as 200mg as part of an HRT regimen. I did mention this to my doctor, (the one who told me he wasn’t comfortable working with me), along with the fact I welcome anything which will lower my testosterone levels even further than they already are. (I should mention I asked for and received a blood test for my levels which indicated mine are on the low end of normal, which makes me hope they might fall into the range seen with HRT).

Now, if I could only get him to see the benefits of also prescribing the other half of the therapy, I might finally be on my way on seeing my true self looking back at me one day.

Study shows longterm hormone treatment (HRT) for transgender people is safe | Planet Transgender

Study shows longterm hormone treatment (HRT) for transgender people is safe | Planet Transgender:

“Years ago when many of use began HRT we didn’t know what the long term effects might have been. Many of us were faced with an ignorant and biased medical profession, who also didn’t know.

Many of those doctors knew how difficult it was to find anyone who would prescribe HRT. These predatory doctors would charge outrageous office fees leaving many of us with no option but to self-medicate.

Not to mention the ‘gatekeeper’ therapist who would lead on clients for months, even years, with a vague notion that someday they might fit neatly into their concept of man or woman to deserve the ‘HRT letter’ to present to a prescribing doctor, if one could be found. All the while those therapists would rake in the dough from hopeful cash-strapped transgender victims.”

(Via.Planet Transgender)

Where Do I Go From Here?

I had therapy today, I’m only going every other week now and my therapist was on vacation so it seems forever since our last session. All things considered I think things were ok for me… Yes, I still have my issues to deal with but at least they didn’t drag me down into a deep dark hole. 

I’m at a bit of a loss as to what to say, I have so much which seems just out of reach for the moment…

Let’s begin with this…

I have set much of my own concerns to the side for the moment. There is simply too much happening with my Father-in-law and I feel there are more important considerations. I know this is causing me issues… I guess it is more important for me to be worrying about those around me than myself… Still, at some point I am going to have to focus on myself and where I am going with transitioning. This was the main topic for therapy and I’ll admit it has me at a loss…

I have already done so much, come so much further than I ever imagined… Going out is just another day, not some major production and at one point I stopped and realized I don’t feel anything exceptional, I’m simply me and wondering what anyone else sees or thinks never crosses my mind. 

All the same, I am at a point where I know there really isn’t turning around and even though I understand HRT is simply a step, and not even the most important, I cannot help but see that taking concrete steps forward is a milestone I cannot ignore forever. Toward this Jodi wants me to begin mapping out my plans from this point forward, in writing. Maybe to make it real to me? I’m not sure but just thinking about doing this small thing has me on the verge of tears and I can’t explain why.

There was a time when the thought of hormones scared me to death; not any more, not in the same way… I suppose it’s more about stepping into the unknown, even more so than I ever have.

Trying to wrap my head around this has my thoughts scattering in a million different directions and I don’t even know where to start anymore.

My Thoughts

It’s been a while since I wrote a personal post. Each time I have tried to write something, I find the words slipping away. Even now it is difficult to find the flow of my thoughts, yet I feel I need to speak…

I’m sorry if this turns into a long post, maybe too long for some…  I do have a habit of overthinking things.


The past several weeks have found me working on becoming comfortable with myself. Of working to understand what I am thinking and feeling. It is different from what I have known, without the background of constant noise. The waves of emotions churning just below the surface. It’s funny to realize just how unnerving silence can be.

Still, there has been a steady drumbeat of thoughts and emotions which have carried me through, always moving me forward. As Jodi said, I may move two steps forward and one back, but I have taken one step forward.

 I guess much of this is because I’m not sure what I should be feeling or thinking, after all, this is a place I have never been before… I will say there has been some small slips here and there, mostly in how I see myself… my reflection seems to mock me some days…

One thing I do know is watching videos of others transformations is having an ever more powerful affect on me. Seeing the changes brought on by HRT is awe inspiring and yet heartbreaking.

This hit home in the past week when A showed me one she had found. The differences took my breath away. I pointed out to her, this was someone who was taking hormones an she responded, “it’s just a matter of time.”

I know she’s right…

I may try to lie to myself and say I am fine as I am, but I’m not. I want what they have… I want those changes in myself. I want their smiles to become my smile…

I want it.

Yes, I know HRT alone cannot make “everything better.” They aren’t  a cure all. They are simply a means to an end. There are still many things which will be with me for the rest of my life regardless of anything I might or might not do; yet just thinking about taking that step is enough to reduce me to tears… It is something I have thought about… dreamed about… wished for… Even knowing this will be another turning point from which I cannot retreat… I want it.

As it stands at the moment, I am looking at about a year before I pursue treatment. I will need to save money for travel, doctors visits, and of course, medication as our insurance isn’t going to cover any of it. I also need the time to get into better shape, doing Yoga and T’ai chi ch’uan for weight loss and muscle toning.

Then there is continuing therapy. As I said, hormones can’t fix everything and there are still many issues I have to work through to reach the place I want to be.