07/27/21

Let me apologize first if this reads as messed up as my thoughts have been today.

For much of this year I have fallen into a state of numbness I haven’t experienced for a very long time. More often than not it seems as though I haven’t had any drive to do more than survive one day to the next. This is something which happened every other time questions regarding my gender arose. I would spend days, sometimes weeks, wondering what it would be like to live my life as female. What it mean to be able to simply walk out the door as the person I felt myself to truly be under the mask I had learned to live with. As my true self, free of the costume I felt compelled to wear in a world I knew would never understand nor accept the truth.

Then I would carefully pack everything away until it faded from consciousness, returning to survival mode until it would unexpectedly rise up and once more leave me reeling with thoughts and fears I didn’t know how to face or reconcile.

It was a cycle which repeated itself over the years until I reached a breaking point I couldn’t recover from.

That was many years ago now. Time and again I have thought I had finally reached a point where going back was impossible, not only because I simply couldn’t but also because I wouldn’t want to.

If only things were so simple.

Today I find myself in a place where I just can’t push past, a place of numbness tinged with a hopelessness I can almost taste. It might be I simply cannot break free of a lifetime of doubt and fear and I will forever be bound by the chains which have bound me for so long.

NBC anchor shreds GOP governor during jawdropping live segment on trans youth

By the end of the segment, the governor was barely coherent, saying that there are only “12 kids in our state that are transgender-type kids.”

NBC anchor shreds GOP governor during jawdropping live segment on trans youth

MSNBC host Stephanie Ruhle chewed out West Virginia Gov. Jim Justice (R) for signing a bill to ban transgender girls from school sports after he couldn’t even say whether there’s even one trans student competing in sports in his state.

“Sir, you have no examples of this happening,” she said as she berated the governor. “Why would you take your time to do this?”

Virginia Prince – Wikipedia

Virginia Prince – Wikipedia:

 

 

 

220px Portrait of Virginia Prince

Virginia Charles Prince (November 23, 1912 – 2, 2009), born Arnold Lowman, was an American transgender activist. She published Transvestia magazine, and started the Foundation for Personality Expression and later the Society for the Second Self for male heterosexual cross-dressers.

Justices Alito, Thomas Call for Overturning of Marriage Equality

Two of the Supreme Court’s most conservative members opened the court’s term with that assertion.

Supreme Court Justices Samuel Alito and Clarence Thomas have opened the court’s term by calling for the overturning of its 2015 marriage equality decision.

The Obergefell v. Hodges decision threatens religious liberty, Alito wrote in a statement in which Thomas concurred. The statement accompanied the court’s order deciding not to review an appeals court decision that went against Kim Davis, the Kentucky county clerk who famously closed down marriage license operations rather than serve same-sex couples.

The Wedge Issue That’s Dividing Trumpworld

https://www.politico.com/news/magazine/2020/08/07/wedge-issue-dividing-trumpworld-392323

 

A group of social conservatives wants the president to embrace anti-transgender issues to reverse his sagging poll numbers. Some Trump advisers think it’s political suicide.

 

In late September, during the final tense weeks of the Kentucky governor’s race, a few hundred thousand voters started seeing ads in their Facebook feeds, YouTube channels and text messages. One spot showed a teenage boy dominating a high school girls wrestling competition. The other showed a boy easily winning a girls track race. Both ads posed the same question: Is this fair?

The ads were the brainchild of Terry Schilling, a conservative activist, who runs a think tank called the American Principles Project and thinks ads like these are precisely what Republicans need to win this fall’s elections. Schilling, 34, who works out of an office in the Washington suburbs, has a simple and slightly contrarian philosophy that social issues—not economics—win elections. In the fall, Schilling had watched from a distance as Matt Bevin, a Trump ally seeking to become Kentucky’s first two-term Republican governor, struggled to pull ahead of Democrat Andy Beshear despite flogging economic development records as part of his closing pitch to voters. Beltway Republicans were beginning to brace for a defeat that would not only cost the party a precious governorship, but potentially further weaken the president’s shaky hold on suburban voters.

That’s when Schilling and his think tank colleagues put the final touches on a risky plan to introduce an issue that, up until that moment, had not come up in the Kentucky campaign.